It's been a while (again. God I'm slack) so I thought it was time for an update. Still in the 80's. Yep, still here. But slowly coming down. I did gain a little over the last few weeks (naughty naughty), but thankfully, it was only about a kilo.

I'm eating well, although not sticking to CS 100%. During this hot weather, I'm finding it hard to live without certain fruits eg. watermelon, pineapple, canteloupe. So I'm not living without them. I'd much rather have the fruit I want than have a blowout on crap. At least it's fruit.

The exercise isn't going too well. Cos I'm not really doing it. It's way too hot at the moment. I have gotten up at 6 and tried to do it, but being so hot at night, it takes forever to fall asleep, and I'm too tired to get up at 6. But I know I have to do it. Bed early tonight, up early tomorrow. I made that promise to myself. I know I won't lose, no matter how well I'm eating, if I don't exercise.

But my motivation is really high (being so hot, I'd rather not be fat lol), so is my will power, so it's just a matter of time before I can finally say I've had a loss, and I'll be in the 70's.

It's been a while since I've written anything. Maybe cos it's been a while since I've lost anything. I'm so mad at myself. I still can't believe I got to under 80, and I blew it. And now I can't get there again. It's only about 1.5 kilos away, but that seems so much when I'm not having great losses anymore. And I'm not even stuffing up. I probably could exercise more, but I just don't have the time with Arie. I do 30 mins a day, 5 days a week. You would think that would be enough.

Anyway, I'm giving it my all, and even if it takes all bloody year, I'm not staying in the 80's for the rest of my life. At this point I don't even care if I make it to my goal of 68. I would be happy with anything between 70 and 75. But I can only imagine what it's going to take to get me there. God, I sound so negative. I'm not really. Just a little disheartened. But that will end when I HAVE A GOOD LOSS!!!

Woo hoo it's over for another year! I'll be honest...I slipped up. A fair bit. But today I'm right back on track. I'm going to enter the new year giving it my all. I'm going to stock up on CS today (yay for xmas gift vouchers!!) and as of today, I'm back into my exercise.

I went clothes shopping yesterday. I did want to wait until I lost more weight before I bought new clothes, bit I cleaned out my wardrobe and got rid of everything too big and stuff I don't wear, and I really don't have that much clothes. So i took advantage of the sales, and got a dress, 2 skirts and 3 tops for $65. Not bad at all. The skirts are a size 14, and just a teeny tiny bit too tight, so a couple of kilos, and I reckon it'll be right! I've been a size 16 for as long as I can remember, so it's a pretty big thing for me. I have huge hips and huge boobs, so to get them into a 14?...I'm pretty happy with that so far.

Hopefully next year, I can be a comfy size 14, and then a 12!! Bring it on!!!

It's 2 sleeps till Christmas and I'm feeling very merry. I have a had really good past 2 days, with no slip ups and plenty of exercise and water. I will keep it up today and tomorrow, have xmas day off, and maybe boxing day off, and then right back into it. I'm not going crazy on my days off though. I'll be sensible. I've already set myself back a fair bit with all the recent going-ons, I really want to go forward now. Next year is going to be all about me. I'll lose this weight, make sure I'm taken care of (with a little baby, sometimes I neglect myself a bit) and and think once I'm feeling confident about the way I look and feel, it will rub off on my daily life and the year will be so much better. But I'm not waiting till New Years to make a "resolution". Why wait? It's something I want to do, and I'm doing it now.

With all that in mind, I'm looking forward to the new year. I'm looking forward to feeling confident and sexy again and not having to worry about what I'm going to wear because everything is unflattering and I feel like a huge blob. I'm not doing that any more.

So Merry Christmas to me, my gift will be my confidence and happiness, Merry Christmas to all, my gift is my best wishes and love and a Happy New Year that will be about feeling good!!

I'm really struggling with staying in the 70's. I know it was a crazy week last week, and now it's TTOM, but it just seems like I've been here forever. It's been 11 weeks on CS and now with this gain, I've only lost 5.3 kilos. 11 weeks and that's it?!? I feel like I'm throwing money, time and effort away. But, hopefully once Christmas is over, I can really get back into it. New year, new me, new attitude.

It may take me a bit longer than everyone else, but I will get there.

So, I've started on the tablets and started exercising again. It really feels like I'm starting all over again. Maybe I'll have a good loss this week, like the first week all over again. I'm changing my weigh in day to Fridays as well. I tend to have a couple of wines over the weekend, and I don't want that to ruin my numbers.

I'm still feeling a bit sick and stuffy, so riding my exercise bike is hard at the moment, but I'm dying to get into it. I just don't have the energy.

I went shopping this morning. I really need some new stuff to wear. I've been wearing pretty much the same outfits over and over, because I'm at an imbetween weight and I don't want to waste money on new stuff, when I'll have to buy even more new stuff later. Makes me want to lose it all even faster. Hurry up weight!!! GET OFF!!!

Wow, haven't been on here on here in about a week, but it feels like much longer. It's been really crazy here. Between Pop passing, staying in Melbourne for the funeral, baby being sick...twice, and now I'm sick, haven't had a chance to really sit down.

I'm sad to say that I have been really really naughty. Absolutley no exercise and eating noting but no - nos. But I didn't really have any options. It was what I was given, or nothing. So I've had pie, sandwiches, mashed potato, hot chips, sausage roll, toast, burger, dim sims etc. But I only gained 900gms (which I don't think is too bad considering it's TTOM as well). So I'm back in the 80's. But I'm right back into CS, 100%, and I'm starting on the fat burner tablets, so hopefully, I will be back in the 70's before I know it!!