Woo hoo it's over for another year! I'll be honest...I slipped up. A fair bit. But today I'm right back on track. I'm going to enter the new year giving it my all. I'm going to stock up on CS today (yay for xmas gift vouchers!!) and as of today, I'm back into my exercise.

I went clothes shopping yesterday. I did want to wait until I lost more weight before I bought new clothes, bit I cleaned out my wardrobe and got rid of everything too big and stuff I don't wear, and I really don't have that much clothes. So i took advantage of the sales, and got a dress, 2 skirts and 3 tops for $65. Not bad at all. The skirts are a size 14, and just a teeny tiny bit too tight, so a couple of kilos, and I reckon it'll be right! I've been a size 16 for as long as I can remember, so it's a pretty big thing for me. I have huge hips and huge boobs, so to get them into a 14?...I'm pretty happy with that so far.

Hopefully next year, I can be a comfy size 14, and then a 12!! Bring it on!!!

It's 2 sleeps till Christmas and I'm feeling very merry. I have a had really good past 2 days, with no slip ups and plenty of exercise and water. I will keep it up today and tomorrow, have xmas day off, and maybe boxing day off, and then right back into it. I'm not going crazy on my days off though. I'll be sensible. I've already set myself back a fair bit with all the recent going-ons, I really want to go forward now. Next year is going to be all about me. I'll lose this weight, make sure I'm taken care of (with a little baby, sometimes I neglect myself a bit) and and think once I'm feeling confident about the way I look and feel, it will rub off on my daily life and the year will be so much better. But I'm not waiting till New Years to make a "resolution". Why wait? It's something I want to do, and I'm doing it now.

With all that in mind, I'm looking forward to the new year. I'm looking forward to feeling confident and sexy again and not having to worry about what I'm going to wear because everything is unflattering and I feel like a huge blob. I'm not doing that any more.

So Merry Christmas to me, my gift will be my confidence and happiness, Merry Christmas to all, my gift is my best wishes and love and a Happy New Year that will be about feeling good!!

I'm really struggling with staying in the 70's. I know it was a crazy week last week, and now it's TTOM, but it just seems like I've been here forever. It's been 11 weeks on CS and now with this gain, I've only lost 5.3 kilos. 11 weeks and that's it?!? I feel like I'm throwing money, time and effort away. But, hopefully once Christmas is over, I can really get back into it. New year, new me, new attitude.

It may take me a bit longer than everyone else, but I will get there.

So, I've started on the tablets and started exercising again. It really feels like I'm starting all over again. Maybe I'll have a good loss this week, like the first week all over again. I'm changing my weigh in day to Fridays as well. I tend to have a couple of wines over the weekend, and I don't want that to ruin my numbers.

I'm still feeling a bit sick and stuffy, so riding my exercise bike is hard at the moment, but I'm dying to get into it. I just don't have the energy.

I went shopping this morning. I really need some new stuff to wear. I've been wearing pretty much the same outfits over and over, because I'm at an imbetween weight and I don't want to waste money on new stuff, when I'll have to buy even more new stuff later. Makes me want to lose it all even faster. Hurry up weight!!! GET OFF!!!

Wow, haven't been on here on here in about a week, but it feels like much longer. It's been really crazy here. Between Pop passing, staying in Melbourne for the funeral, baby being sick...twice, and now I'm sick, haven't had a chance to really sit down.

I'm sad to say that I have been really really naughty. Absolutley no exercise and eating noting but no - nos. But I didn't really have any options. It was what I was given, or nothing. So I've had pie, sandwiches, mashed potato, hot chips, sausage roll, toast, burger, dim sims etc. But I only gained 900gms (which I don't think is too bad considering it's TTOM as well). So I'm back in the 80's. But I'm right back into CS, 100%, and I'm starting on the fat burner tablets, so hopefully, I will be back in the 70's before I know it!!

Somebody shoot me. I feel terrible. I've had such a bad past couple of days. First, Chris's Pop passed away Saturday night, so we went up to Melbourne yesterday to be with the family. So of course that was a sad time. Then Chris decided to stay there the night so Nanna wouldn't be alone, so I'm left with the shit drive back from Box Hill to Traralgon on my own (well, with Arie). So on the way home, bub gets sick and vomits everywhere. His first real chuck up. Poor little mite. And he has been sick all last night, and all day. He is so consipated and throwing up, and just crying and crying. So I've eaten like crap, cos I only had one hand, I was on my own and had no time. I've done no exercise and have had very little sleep. Arie is asleep now, so hopefully, he stays that way. Going to the docs tomorrow to get a suppository (great) and once my boy is sorted, I can get sorted too.

I am so happy!!! I'm in the 70's!! I weighed in this morning at 79.8 and I really didn't think I would be here! It's only .2 into the 70's, so it could fluctuate and go back up, but I am going to work my arse off this week and make sure that number goes down...or at least stays the same if I have a shit week.

Well that's got me feeling really good. It was taking forever to get here and I was starting to think I couldn't do it, but I have. Only 4.8 kilos till I hit my mini goal, and can buy some new clothes. I think I'd like to get some new underwear. Matching sets. Nothing of mine matches and it makes me feel really frumpy. But once I hit my mini goal, I'll be feeling good and sexy again, so that's going to be my reward.

I'm going to go out and get some fat burner tablets today. I really want to start getting my losses a bit bigger. I'd like at least .5 a week. I'm sick of this .2 crap. I know it's still a loss blah blah blah, but it still doesn't feel good when you have worked so hard for a .2 loss. So I'm going to try and boost it up a bit.

So here's to a new weigh in week, and staying in the 70's!!!

Weigh in day tomorrow. Hopefully my strictness over the past couple of days will pay off. Have Chris's work break up on Sunday at the races, so I will be wearing a pretty dress and all that jazz. I would love to be in the 70's for that (not that you would be able to see any difference, it would just boost my confidence). The people from his work haven't seen me since I was pregnant, so hopefully they will notice.

Not long till Christmas now. I have my tree up and the whole lounge is decked out. I love this time of year, and now with my baby, it's even better. I can't wait until he knows what it's all about and can get excited. I have a few chrissy parties coming up, so this month should test my willpower. I'll be bringing my own meat to bbq's, and a few have asked us to bring a plate, so I'll be bringing salad so I can stick to CS.

I'm feeling really good today, so hopefully tomorrow doesn't dampen my spirits!!

I'm finally getting back into the swing of my exercise. I rode for 25kms yesterday and it was great. I'll do the same today. Was going to go for a walk, but my eyes are so itchy, I'm ready to rip them out of their sockets.

I didn't stuff up with my eating yesterday, but for some reason, I still feel bad. I have no idea. Maybe I'm just feeling this way cos I don't think I'll lose this week. If I can avoid a gain, and just stay the same weight, next week I will have to be in the 70's. And that's all I want. Once I'm there, I feel like it will be achieveable to get to my goal weight.

Anyway, went shopping yesterday for my sister's chrissy present. She wanted new clothes. And looking around at clothes just made me all that more determined. I wanted to buy stuff for myself, but I told myself that it would be a waste of money cos (hopefully) it would be too big for me soon. Can't wait to go on a huge shopping spree when I'm at goal. That will be my heaven!!!

Woo hoo it's Monday! Back into it! I only did half arsed workouts this weekend because I was so busy, but now that Chris is back at work, I can get into it.

I feel really bloated. It's a week before TTOM, so it's no surprise. Just hope it doesn't affect the scales too much, beacuse I feel like I'm getting nowhere at the moment. If I can just get past 80, I know I'll be fine. It's driving me nuts. No way I'm going to get to my Christmas Eve goal.

Well after feeling sick all yesterday afternoon, I decided enough was enough and I had to make myself be sick. Huge mistake. Once I started I couldn't stop. Disgusting.

Feeling better today, so I can start exercising again. Made a deal with Mum yesterday. For every 5 kilos I lose, she will give me $100 to buy new clothes. Yay yay yay. And with about 15 kilos to go, it's great incentive. Definantley something to look forward to.

So with that offer on, I'm feeling really good about everything. My neck isn't sore anymore, and I don't think my stomach has anything left to throw up (unless I bring up that foul CS choc UHT...that was horrible).

So here's to a new day!!

I'm feeling like shit today. I have no motivation, my neck is killing me and I'm so tired. Can't sleep because of a pulled muscle in my neck. I don't feel like eating at all, not even my shakes. I know I have to, so I will, but I just want to rest. No exercise for me today. I hate days like this.

Arrgghhh! I am so mad!!! All that work, and I'm still in the 80's!!! Sitting right on 80. Bet someone above is laughing at me now. Huge joke. I had better be in the 70's next week or I'm going to punch someone. I'm so mad.

Another day.

I stuck to my eating plan yesterday! Felt really good for it too. Let's just hope I can do it again today. Shouldn't be too bad. Nothing to eat at Mum's (chemo makes her not eat). And I discovered if I ride over lunch time, have my shake at 2, and my snack at 4, I don't get hit with the afternoon sugar cravings. Just means I have to have a snack at 10, and at 12. But I don't snack after dinner, so it all evens out.

Eating plan
Brekkie - Choc mint CS shake
Morning snack 1 - small orange
Morning snack 2 - small apple
Lunch - Caramel CS shake
Afternoon snack - boiled egg and piece of cheese
Dinner - Chicken wings and steamed vegies

Water
3 litres

Exercise
50 mins on the bike

Weigh in tomorrow, and I'll be damned if I'm still in the 80's.

Today, I am NOT going to stuff up. No way. Jumped on the scales again this morning, and it was at exactly 80. I've worked too hard and waited too long to be back in the 80's. I WILL be in the 70's for my weigh in on Thursday.

Eating plan
Brekkie - Choc CS shake
Morning snack - small orange
Lunch - Cafe Latte CS shake
Afternoon snack - tuna with tomato and cheese.
Dinner - Spag Bol (without the spag lol. Sauce on vegies)

Water
3 litres

Exercise
50 mins on the bike

I will stick to it today...I promise!

Stuffed it...

As the heading suggests, I've stuffed it for the day. After doing 55 mins on the bike, I ate pretty much a whole cake. Ok, lol, it was just a slice (big enough slice) but the way I see it...it may as well have been the whole bloody thing. And I have no idea why I ate it. It was just there. Thanks to my MIL. Skinny bitch has no idea.

Tomorrow is a new day, I know that, I'm just pissed I worked my ass off just to sabotage myself.

Monday again. I used to hate the start of the week. Now I actually look forward to it. It's a new day, a new week, a new start. No weekend distractions, just the voice in my mind telling me to not eat crap and to ride my ass off.

I had a sneak weigh in this morning...79.9! I've crossed that elusive line. But I'm not going to celebrate too soon. Still 3 days before weigh in, and it's nearly TTOM, so I will bloat. Great. But it's more incentive for me to push myself hard this week. I want to stay in the 70's. I need to. No way am I ever going to go backwards again. I am now at the exact weight I was when I fell pregnant 15 months ago. So I'm quite proud.

Eating plan for the day
Brekkie- choc mint CS shake
Morning snack- small apple
Lunch- caramel CS skake
Afternoon snack- blueberries with vanilla yoghurt
Dinner- Grilled Blue Grenadier and salad

Water
3 litres

Exercise
1 hour on the bike

If I can stick to that, I know I'll be fine.

This my before photo...I'm the fat one (obviously).

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Wow, my very own blog...lol...who would of thunk it? OK, so about me. I'm Melissah. I'm 21. I'm a Mum to 6 month old Arie. My partner is Chris. We live in Gippsland. I'm losing weight with Celebrity Slim. I'm 165cm, and I currently weigh 80.2 kilos. My starting weight was 86.5 kilos. I'm slowly getting there.



I've been on CS for 7 weeks now, and I love it. I used to watch the ads, thinking it was just another fad diet. But then I decided I was willing to give anything a go to lose weight, and boy am I glad I did. It's FANTASTIC!!



Anway, enough for now. It's the start of the day and I need to get moving!